Today, Josh and I celebrate our one year anniversary. July 9, 2011 we said "I do" under a setting sun in the company of all our loved ones. Josh bawled as I walked down the aisle and tried to steal a kiss as my Dad gave me away. We ate pancakes, danced with all our family and friends, and let off over 50 sky lanterns into the night sky. That day still remains my favorite day of my entire life so far...
Our first couple months of marriage were light and breezy. I spent the days lying in the sun, while Josh worked from home. We had breakfast, lunch, and dinner together every day.
Unfortunately, life isn't always a fairytale, and I had to start work at the end of September. Josh began coaching at Corban for fall ball and continued working from home in the mornings for Baseball Northwest.
It finally started to hit that there were bills to pay and work to be done to pay those bills. We braced ourselves for the upcoming busy season we knew was coming.
Let's put this in the nicest way possible. It's really tough to be a married baseball coach and tax accountant - and have any energy left at the end of the day for one another. Josh would be at practice until 7 or later every evening. I came home just about the same time after a 10+ hour work day. We'd eat whatever we could shove in our mouths the quickest, numb our brains with the TV, fall asleep, and do it all over again the next day.
During those busy months, we lost track of who we really were - individually and as a married couple. We reverted to "survival mode" and it took us about a month and a half after April 15th to really bounce back. It was a true test of our marriage - and I honestly wouldn't wish it on any newlyweds. There were countless nights of tears, frustration, and sometimes plain apathy.
Looking back on our first year of marriage, we are celebrating in a different way than I thought we would. Believe me - we are more than thrilled that we made it - and more than thrilled to have each other for the rest of our lives - but we are celebrating this mile marker more with a sigh of relief than an exclamation of joy.
That was obvious by how we chose to spend our long weekend off "celebrating." We had originally planned to travel to Seattle to stay at Salish Lodge where we stayed on our honeymoon. But the 10 hour round trip had us contemplating the waste of a day driving... so we decided to just stay put. We spent Thursday through Sunday mostly at home - napping, lying out in the sun, finishing the last season of Lost, cleaning, loving on each other. We had breakfast, lunch, and dinner together every day. We woke up together and went to bed together. And even though it wasn't glorious in any fashion - it was just what my wife-heart needed.
Josh is an understanding, generous man that brings me so much comfort and so much joy. I am forever grateful for his constant support. There are NO others arms I'd rather fall into after my long, hard days. We're still figuring life out... but we're TOGETHER. And that's all that matters.
I love you, Warner.
1 year down. Always and forever left to go. ♥
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